The mom I knew the best

The Mom I knew the best went by the name Lucinda Ada Johnson. She was born in July 16Th 1926. She married my father late in 1974 in Nevada. She had five children previous to my father's marriage.

The first time I meet her was around age 4. From an early age I lacked the nurturing and undiscriminating care from a mother could give. Lucinda was the mother of all great ones.

She had beautiful blond hair and always wore red lipstick.

She loved me with all of her being, she loved me like a mom filled with unconditional love for a daughter born from her womb. I bonded so quickly to her that In my mind eye I couldn't separate her from my own real mother nor remember her. I believe that Heavenly Father looked down and saw this great need I had in having a mother guidance and love. So he blessed me in Lucinda care to give me guidance in my small life. She taught me to love unconditional, to forgive, acceptance of others, most of all to love my Savior as my Best Friend. She taught me how to be a good mother.

She gave me a great love for dark chocolate. Every time I taste it richness I am reminded of her eat the specially treat besides my mom. Every time I put on some red lipstick it reminds me of watching her put on her and getting kisses on the forehead.

I didn't get to have her as long as I wanted as a child. for me it would have been forever. I lived with her for only four years of my life which seem so short.

Even as a teenager I reached back to her through letters and many phone calls. As a young adult I tired to be with her as much as possible because to me she was my best friend and my mom.

In April of 2004, she died bravely of cancer. She will forever live as my mom. I love her so very much. There isn't a day I don't miss her and wish I could be besides her being nurtured and loved. One day I hope to see her and run up as fast as I can to throw my arms around her to hug her, to feel of her love. I hope to spend eterity besides her.

My younger days!

My father own horses when I was younger around two I loved being on the animals just as much as my dad enjoyed rasing the horses..

One of my favorite photos I have when I was younger with my two older brothers and I am on a swing. I thought it was the perfect picture of my family I had at that moment.

My Father was raised in Oka, Utah which is a small town up north in Utah and always had animals around. The older I got my dad contiuned with his love of animals from rasing goats, to full breed Siemesse cats, chickens. I think the one thing I gain from my dad is the love of animals that probably why I have two cats, a African frog, Hamster named fluffy. Gota love them animals!!

Being a single mom

We all have trails which make us stonger but yet are not so found to of. I would say mine is being a single mom. It has it hidden blessing like covenat time to myself. I have time to rejevant my spirit from being with my kids. I have time to watch programs on Dvd's or t.v without being interupted by children. Yet, the negtive things for me is not having my children around me all the time. Its not having the time my son Max who purposly finds me to tell me "mom love you". This means alot to me speailly when he struggles to talk. It not getting the snuggle time with my daughters.
I have five wonderful children who I wouldn't be the mother I am becasue of them. They have taught me how to love and to forgive in a Christ like way . I learned a better way to teach my children then I grew up with. I learned as a mom I can't be superwomen that I need to rejevant...i need to take care of myself. It easy for me to loose myself in my kids, my work, my freinds.
Its never been easy for me to take care of myself. I have learned from a Heavenly Father which has guided a bf and freinds.
Being a mother has always has had it bitter sweet for me. I was place to have the mother instint but I always craved and wanted more from my own mother who I felt bonded and loved by. I never got all I wanted as a child , teenager. As an adult I have found the naturing I need for my inner child in different ways through the guidince of my father in Heaven.
I just hope one day my trail of being a single mom will be over and I can go on to another change and other trails.

For the love of the game

Two brothers in the love of the game..

My boys have always enjoyed baseball. It turns my spring into a very busy one with games and practice but it all worth it for the them.

Max my youngest has love baseball since he was 18months old. He would bug you entail you threw a ball so he could hit it with a bat.
Soon, he learned to throw and it was hard. Mom got hit many times in the head. Max has had many examples to watch baseball like his big brother Jordan and his closer Brother Myles.

Myles this year also did very well in Little league. He got picked out to try out for his All stars team which was a first fro him. He was very excited about try out and was very hopeful. He didn't make it this year but hopefully next year he will make it on the All stars team.