Being a single mom

We all have trails which make us stonger but yet are not so found to of. I would say mine is being a single mom. It has it hidden blessing like covenat time to myself. I have time to rejevant my spirit from being with my kids. I have time to watch programs on Dvd's or t.v without being interupted by children. Yet, the negtive things for me is not having my children around me all the time. Its not having the time my son Max who purposly finds me to tell me "mom love you". This means alot to me speailly when he struggles to talk. It not getting the snuggle time with my daughters.
I have five wonderful children who I wouldn't be the mother I am becasue of them. They have taught me how to love and to forgive in a Christ like way . I learned a better way to teach my children then I grew up with. I learned as a mom I can't be superwomen that I need to rejevant...i need to take care of myself. It easy for me to loose myself in my kids, my work, my freinds.
Its never been easy for me to take care of myself. I have learned from a Heavenly Father which has guided a bf and freinds.
Being a mother has always has had it bitter sweet for me. I was place to have the mother instint but I always craved and wanted more from my own mother who I felt bonded and loved by. I never got all I wanted as a child , teenager. As an adult I have found the naturing I need for my inner child in different ways through the guidince of my father in Heaven.
I just hope one day my trail of being a single mom will be over and I can go on to another change and other trails.